It's been no secret that the last couple of years have not been kind to me and I have not particularly dealt with it all that well. I mean, it's probably not all -that- apparent through just my posts on here, but I'm sure you have parsed as much if you're a regular and it's been a constant source of frustration for me...which is a pity since most of my issues are also frustration-related. Regardless, this year has been worse by far which is punctuated by "The Great Mogs Funk of 2013" in which Funk does not mean good things, but rather bad things like not posting for days in a row and that sort of thing. Also the mini "Resurgence of the Great Mogs Funk" which I hadn't honestly 'announced' or declared or anything, but kind of thought it with slight disapproval in myself.
I'm not saying it's fixed. What I am saying is that I was in the equivalent of stormy waters at the edge of a sheer cliffside which means that I felt kind of stuck and going under which is a bit cliché, but whatever. And what I'm saying is that recently a rope dropped down and goddamned if I am not clinging to it. Who knows what's going to happen with this rope. Maybe it'll fray and drop me back down at some point or maybe it'll help me get over the cliff, after which I can take the rope and..er...well, I was going somewhere with that, but that part of the analogy/metaphor doesn't really translate. But basically, as you can tell, I'm kind of like a shark in that I just have to make analogies. Except I'm not really like a shark because the analogy I used was about drowning and goddamnit anyway
The thing is, I've felt better lately. Ever since I got that 'rope' dropped down to me, I've been really pulling myself up and feeling better and like I can really breathe again. What is has also introduced me to, however, is the weird feeling where I'm just finally happy again and I don't want to do anything but sit back and bask in the happiness because it's been a while. Which means that even though I'm in particularly good moods, I find it hard to actually sit down, focus and write up a post even though I do legitimately have things I can write about. I could write more stuff about Dynasty Warriors 8, for example, including a dissertation as to why implementing a system which has you freely gathering weapons and then introducing a hard cap to the amount of weapons you can have is dumb, especially with no options to directly compare without just moving back and forth and also not letting you just discard/sell weapons outright at victory screen or something.
Still, I do like to share these types of things in the vague sense at least, since I like being straight with you fine folks who make a habit of reading my ramblings. So when I'm not going to be able to post or when I'm having troubles doing so, I like to...you know, say that instead of leaving you hanging. I'd rather that it just wouldn't happen, of course, but when it does, you just gotta figure out a way to roll with it. Hopefully soon I'll normalize again and be able to actually write things and whatnot like I'm back to usual, but until then, I'll do what I can. Since, well, that's about it! Thanks again for sticking around while I go through these difficulties!
seriously though, I'm doing pretty good finally
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